My Journey as a Twin Flame…

There is so much information circulating about Twin Flames.  There are books, articles, YouTube videos — you name it — about what this journey is like.  I am not here to ‘school’ anybody because we all walk our own paths.  My Twin Flame journey will not be like someone else’s.  There is no right or wrong.  It is a journey that many embark on and have an inner knowing that this is their  Truth.

When the words ‘ Twin Flame’ came to me, I was in a relationship with my first partner.  She gave me a book to read about Twin Flames because she was convinced I was her Twin.  After reading a few chapters, something didn’t resonate.  I knew it wasn’t MY truth, so I let the label go.  Fast forward two years into our extremely toxic relationship, I knew my intuition was spot on.

About two years later, I met someone who I believe to be my Twin Flame.  Before I get into some minor details, the reason why I worded it as ‘someone who I believe to be my TF’ is because I am open to being wrong.  For a long time I wasn’t and it actually hindered my ascension process.  I believe the key to this journey is to remain unattached to everything and everyone.  In that detachment is where you will find the ultimate Truth.

When I had met my TF, I was in a place where I needed deep healing, but I didn’t know how. I had little to no tools. The minute I met my TF, things changed for me.  When I looked into her eyes for the first time, I felt like I knew her on a soul level. Everything about her felt like home.  Her actual home felt like my home.  She felt like my divine counterpart.  I felt a kind of love that I truly did not know existed.  We triggered each other on such a deep level that we felt raw, naked and vulnerable. We tried to make sense of it all but we just couldn’t.  There is so much more that goes into this but I choose to keep it sacred out of respect & protection.

The last night I saw her, I had a deep knowing we would separate for quite some time. I even heard a gentle voice say, “You will be back but not for a while.”  Needless to say, the separation threw me into a soul trauma I had never experienced before. I remember crying out to God, “Why? Please help me understand this relationship. I don’t understand why we need to be apart. It doesn’t feel right!”  Not that long after I came across a plethora of information about Twin Flames.  Everything I had read made sense & every cell in my body awakened. It felt like complete Truth.  That was when my journey of spiritual awakening happened.  I knew I was living a life filled with illusions & it was my calling to remember my own Divinity.

The signs and synchronicities only got stronger as time went on.  717, 11:11, 144, license plates with “Twinsies” on it, randomly stumbling upon a movie about Twin Flames, meeting other people on the TF journey, etc…

Am I in union with the person whom I feel is my Twin Flame? No.  That is ok. I know what I felt & feel, and regardless of what happens, our Time together was a necessary part of my evolution as well as hers. It took me a while to get through the doubts, fears, paranoia, and so on.  I would not even talk about Twin Flames or my journey out of fear that people would judge me. But here I am, open hearted, vulnerable, sharing my story with you.  Being a Twin Flame is not about the Union with another person.  It has nothing to do with the other person at all. If someone else shows up & is a high vibe match for you, it shouldn’t matter.

The TF Journey is about Self: Self-Love, Self-Mastery, Self-Respect, Union with Self. It is not an easy path, but I am honored to be a True Twin Flame in this and many other lifetimes.

How Massage Therapy Chose Me…

A lot of my clients ask me why I have decided to become a Massage Therapist.  I don’t really think much about it, but as I reflected, I had realized this sole decision kickstarted my life as a healer.  Growing up, my sister use to always ask me to massage her, and when I was in college at Pace University back in 2006, a friend of mine use to always ask me to massage him.  I never really knew what I was doing, but word got out that I was good at it.  I never thought much of it since my dream was to be a writer and filmmaker, but all of that changed once I graduated in 2010.

I remember being so miserable moving back home to Long Island after feeling free and independent in NYC for four years.  A part of me was torn between moving to California and starting a life as a filmmaker, but another part of me wasn’t sure if that was my true calling.  What happened? I settled for a job that I hated as a Legal Assistant. My relationship at the time was crumbling.  I wasn’t happy and I didn’t know what to do about it.

After some thought and a nudge from my partner at the time, I decided to take a chance and go to school for Massage Therapy.  Needless to say, it stuck.  I was so dedicated to studying, understanding the human body, and stepping into a profession where I felt I was truly helping others.  Almost four years later, I am still a practicing Therapeutic Massage Therapist.  I have had some nightmare jobs, but I have also met some incredible clients.  As passionate as I am about my career, I know it chose me in order to open my heart to my true Mission.

Although I do not see myself leaving the Massage Therapy field anytime soon, I believe stepping into my power as a Therapist has allowed me to open up to something greater than me.  I began my journey of spiritual awakening not too long before I started practicing and that is not a coincidence.  Massage Therapy has taught me to be still in the silence and become aware of what the client is experiencing without any words being spoken.  It is a collaboration between the therapist and client — a conversation between your hands and the client’s body & energy.  Separation is an illusion because in that moment, we are both creating a healing space through positive intention.

Massage Therapy has not only helped me connect with clients and help them, but it has connected me to myself.  What is my intention in this moment? What energy am I carrying? Am I transferring positivity or negativity?  When I walk into a session feeling moody and not grounded, I know my client will feel that.  The same happens in return, as well.

I am so grateful for this career because I am not just helping others. I am not just helping myself. I am allowing my soul to expand by using this art as a way to do other types of energy work (Reiki and Integrated Energy Therapy) and to allow the Divine to work through me for both of our highest good in order to connect the Mind, Body & Soul. I am able to serve others through other modalities as well, such as Life/Health Coaching, Angel Card Readings, etc… because everything is connected. All the pain we experience is just emotional debris manifested in the physical so you can’t just treat the body, although it is an incredible start.

I honestly believe my path unfolded the way it did so I could be a conduit of healing energy through Massage, and once that Purpose was fulfilled, expand through the connection of Source.  It took me quite a while to get there, but I am here, and savoring every second of it.